Thank You

Thank you dear friends for all your lovely heartfelt comments, they mean so much to me.

I think I am in "that" place right now, where the sun, even though shinning, appears dull and without joy. It will pass.

I spent most of yesterday knitting, yes you read that right (and thanks Mere, you are so kind and thoughtful and know me so well!).

I sat there for a moment and thought, well, I really don't have a project in mind, so I picked up my knitting needles and what ever yarn was nearby (yes, my house if full of yarn, Hubby is use to it, in fact he has come to believe that all houses have yarn) and I started a 7 x 9 rectangle to send off to the dear lady in Nicholasville,  KY at A Tangled Yarn who is collecting them to make blankets  for the tornadoes victiums of last March in West Liberty KY.  Here's her Ravelry group and Facebook page if you want to learn more.

I just got to thinking that even though I am sad I wanted to reach out and help someone. In a way it's sort of a memorial I want to do in my Mama's name. I have made squares in the past and dropped them off there (which by the way, if you are near her shop, please stop by she is one of the sweetest people you will ever meet and her shop is awesome. I love her shop and I love Fred her shop cat. He is a rescue cat and he's a cutie.).

So I am going to make a few rectangles and relax. I am also writing like crazy right now, too. I have learned that when my emotions start to get out of whack I write. I write a lot.

I have a poem coming up that I have written about my Mama. It's a deep poem that reached into my soul and left me standing on the page naked. My emotions are always so raw when it comes to Mama.

I know ten years is a lot of time, but for me, time has stood still in a lot of ways.

You are all so very kind of me and such blessings in my life. I value each of your friendships and know that it was not by chance that we found each others blogs and have developed our friendships.

So I think you dear friends for being a source of light that shines through to the dark place where I currently am. But fear not, I won't be here long. This happens every year. Some years I am better at hiding it than others...but this year, being sick and feeling all worn out....there was no way to hide the pain and hurt.....but thank you for the hugs and prayers and kindness. I am so blessed to have such awesome people like yourselves in my life.  :)