I'm bored! Flat out of my mind bored! I mean, seriously, if I see one more boring project, with one more boring yarn, I am gonna scream!
I went to You Tube and found a video to show how to do Crochet Entrelac. I made three rows that were about 50 inches long (I was thinking of an afghan) and then it felt so scratchy, so thick...after a another row, I was at the point of wanting to wrap it around my neck and play wish bone! It was getting pretty boring. Did I happen to mention I am bored?
I can't find anything that is making me want to drop everything and make it. Nothing. I have looked in all my magazines, pattern books, on line....blogs....nothing is speaking my language.
Usually, I don't have to do much...I just go through life minding my own little bees wax and the next thing I know a pattern comes up to me and says, "How you doing?" usually in a thick New York accent. I always giggle and the next thing I know I am making the pattern.
But now I am bored. BORED. Did I happen to mention I am bored? No seriously, b-o-r-e-d.
I walked past the craft studio and the knitting needles were giving me the bird. I heard some whispers and giggles and when I looked back one of them was trying to moon me, but thankfully couldn't get itself out of the holder.
I keep seeing all kinds of cool knitted lace patterns out there....but I don't have any lace yarn. Well, I have a skein but it's pure wool and if I even get in the same room with it I break out in hives and start itching in places I never knew I had. Yeah, no wool for me.
I need a direction...a focus....
January is always a sad time for me. It should be the month of promise and hope, but for me, it is one of loss. Of looking back and realizing that even though the years continue to add up, I am no less "over" the passing of my Mama. I never will be. There will never come a time where I can just sit and smile and look back without tears. Mama was not just my Mother, the person who taught me right from wrong, the person who showed me unconditional love and support...she was my best friend.
I had someone say to me once, "My God, how long are you going to morn?" And I looked at them and said, "As long as I breathe." They just shook their head and walked away. Love doesn't stop with death. It's a bookmark in the story, not an ending.
So I think that is why I am bored right now.....I don't have the heart to start something just yet....my emotions are all wound so tight around my heart right now.
Ok, now that I have depressed everyone. Sorry. If you see a pattern out there that looks cool (yes, it can be a knitted one, too) then let me know. I am up for looking at new patterns and stuff.
I've gotta run...I can hear the knitting needles trying to create a ruckus in the craft studio. I just heard a thud and then a scream....tell me again why do I keep them?
I went to You Tube and found a video to show how to do Crochet Entrelac. I made three rows that were about 50 inches long (I was thinking of an afghan) and then it felt so scratchy, so thick...after a another row, I was at the point of wanting to wrap it around my neck and play wish bone! It was getting pretty boring. Did I happen to mention I am bored?
I can't find anything that is making me want to drop everything and make it. Nothing. I have looked in all my magazines, pattern books, on line....blogs....nothing is speaking my language.
Usually, I don't have to do much...I just go through life minding my own little bees wax and the next thing I know a pattern comes up to me and says, "How you doing?" usually in a thick New York accent. I always giggle and the next thing I know I am making the pattern.
But now I am bored. BORED. Did I happen to mention I am bored? No seriously, b-o-r-e-d.
I walked past the craft studio and the knitting needles were giving me the bird. I heard some whispers and giggles and when I looked back one of them was trying to moon me, but thankfully couldn't get itself out of the holder.
I keep seeing all kinds of cool knitted lace patterns out there....but I don't have any lace yarn. Well, I have a skein but it's pure wool and if I even get in the same room with it I break out in hives and start itching in places I never knew I had. Yeah, no wool for me.
I need a direction...a focus....
January is always a sad time for me. It should be the month of promise and hope, but for me, it is one of loss. Of looking back and realizing that even though the years continue to add up, I am no less "over" the passing of my Mama. I never will be. There will never come a time where I can just sit and smile and look back without tears. Mama was not just my Mother, the person who taught me right from wrong, the person who showed me unconditional love and support...she was my best friend.
I had someone say to me once, "My God, how long are you going to morn?" And I looked at them and said, "As long as I breathe." They just shook their head and walked away. Love doesn't stop with death. It's a bookmark in the story, not an ending.
So I think that is why I am bored right now.....I don't have the heart to start something just yet....my emotions are all wound so tight around my heart right now.
Ok, now that I have depressed everyone. Sorry. If you see a pattern out there that looks cool (yes, it can be a knitted one, too) then let me know. I am up for looking at new patterns and stuff.
I've gotta run...I can hear the knitting needles trying to create a ruckus in the craft studio. I just heard a thud and then a scream....tell me again why do I keep them?
The loss of a loved one is not something that ever goes away..something small happens and the memories come pouring back..so my prayer for you is this..may the memories that come back to you bring you smiles and joy..no more tears..
ReplyDeleteReally doesn't sound like you to be bored..how crazy is that? I don't even think they make a pill for that..sounds like you need a distraction..ROAD TRIP..supposed to be close to 50 here on Tuesday..just sayin blessings my friend.
Oh Dear Stitchy friend, we all know and have been there, with the itch to create something and it has to be a certain something...it's a not so nice place to be creatively speaking.we get rather " ansy " so to speak. Know dear friend it happens to best of us all. A pattern will jump out at you when you least expect..I'm sorry about your mom..mine has been gone a long time now, I was 21..and I'm 55 now..a long lifetime ago..time passes so quickly..so much life since then to be grieved for. Give yourself as much time as you need, sometimes it's harder than others..but be kind to yourself..
ReplyDeleteand for God's sake...find a pattern! LOL
Hugs...
You keep those needles because some day a knitting pattern is going to jump out at you and and grab you by the hand and lead right towards the perfect yarn. You will sit down, cast on and be very happy. For now I suggest a good book, something you can lose yourself in for a while. You have been sick, which always depletes your reserves, and makes emotions run high. January is a tough month for you, you know this so just be in that place. Your Mother was an amazing woman, she is still loving you everyday. She would want you to be happy, take a deep breath, count to ten, find a book and lose yourself for a while.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you dear friend,
Meredith
Ohhhhh, I hope you feel better soon. Its so very tough sometimes, this life. But know that you are thought or and held close to many hearts. Looking forward to a few more weeks and many a new project coming from you. Let me know what you find, I might as well add another project in. Blessings sweet girl.
ReplyDeleteLosing someone you love so much is one of those things you never get over... you just get through... somedays that means being sad. blessings and hugs ~ tanna
ReplyDeleteSounds like you need a hug. HUG!!!!! Did you get it? I get this way too and it's so darn depressing. I can't stand it because I have so much to be happy and thankful for and here I sit moping about. That makes me even more depressed. We'll chalk it up to the weather and move on, shall we? Let's think about all the love that surrounds us every day. I'm sure it will make us feel better.
ReplyDeleteHiya girlfriend,
ReplyDeleteThanks for stopping over my place...I tried to respond directly from your comment, and access you. I don't know what's up with that. Hoping your feeling a wee bit more better today my girl....it could very well be the weather,it's been gray..and cold..but today..the sun was out....much better...
Hugs